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finally I have the time to blog.. which i'm suppose to do it before cny and now cny is going to end! haha

lots and lots of events happen in 2010 and everyone were saying that 2011 will be a better one which i highly doubt so.. my ns life is coming to an end ( march 11) which is a good thing to hear it cos i really hate my camp mates, they just simply don't understand me and all they know is that i'm just trying to get my way out and slack! all simply jealous that i'm a stay out personnel.. luckily there is one or two friends there which makes me feel better staying in camp(: thanks!
i seriously don't know what had happen to my life? maybe i'm just screwing it up big time! is it my attitude that makes people stay away from me or what? anyone please kindly enlighten me..
my presence to everyone is slowly not need as time flies..
maybe i should stop being so emo and start to get back on track! but i just need someone to care for me when i needs it but those suppose to nvr ): its really hurts
OHYA! i did my knee surgery and i'm suffering now! i feel like an old man and i'm having difficulties climbing stairs! omg ): but who will ever care for me? ):

FOR HER!
i'm really really happy that i saw you at udders that day(: but i can sense the awkwardness when you saw me.. kind of sad ): we use to be friends that chats alot and share secrets but after what i did to you, all had come to an end! i seriously hope that one day you will drop me an message asking me how am i, i think i'll be the happiest guy on earth! once again! i'm just dreaming.. i know you tried hard to avoid me cos you think that you might give me the wrong impression that we still could be possible.. but to be frank! i don't hope much.. just a friend and i'll be happy le!
you said that we're not possible cos of our personality and characteristics but all i can say is that people do change and i can shout out loud that over the years i've changed! not to be a better guy but at least its better than my past.. hai!

i feel kind of stupid.. ranting over here when the world thinks that my blog had die-ed! ohwell.. at least i can save time on putting this blog to a private one(:

i really really miss you ):


please please! let my 2011 to be a better one and full of positive surprises!

pardon me for my english!


:D I'm so happy today! finally received a reply from her! first time after so long.. hahaa
but kind of worried that she just replied thanks cos i wished her happy birthday and ignored the rest that I wrote to her..
I did my part to move on and not thinking abt still being able to get back with her but I just only want to befriend with her.. hhaha
now! all I have to do is to wait(: i replied again.. so see if she's going to reply me(:
AHHHH! I'm still happy that she replied me this afternoon!! hahahaha

I've got myself one week mc got I went for wisdom tooth surgery! finally can rest at home and finish up all my homework and projects! my campmates are hating me more le! cos i think i forget to tell one of the team that I'm going for surgery. anw hate then hate lor.. what else can you do to me? I'm also human.. if you think that all my medical history are all fake then follow me to the hospital and verify lor.. you think I'm happy to let you all say i chao keng ah.. you know how the feeling like being said chao keng continuously? and ya i know my head is big.. SO?! you think I want it? anw i'm used to it lah.. you want to make fun of me then so be it lah.. i got nothing to say..and THANKS for being such a nice friend!

all I want to say is that!

TODAY I'M SOOOOO HAPPYYYYYYY! 很开心 :D


luck isn't good to me):
why all bad things like me so much?
i know all don't like me cause of my medical problems.. but i'm not going to care so much as i'm already sick and tired of all this, it's so obvious that someone is sabo-ing me. what to do? when things happen, all why point fingers at me and pushing all the blames on me! ITS FUCKING OBVIOUS THAT SOMEONE PURPOSELY ANYHOW PUT THE STUFF SOMEWHERE!

miss class today ): felt damn sian!
AHH! i wanted to blog down alot of stuff but now! my mind is blank.. nothing is flowing out
but i guess no one will actually read this blog anymore as its stagnant for months.. i think its fine also lah then i don't need to make effort to private my blog.. hahahaa

anw why is it so hard to forget someone? i tried so hard but its not fruitful. when i was about to succeed, somehow somethings will triggers it. i know you are already avoiding me and don't wish to talk to me.. and i'm always the one which make you thing back all those bad memories..but can't you think about how we were before we got together? all those fun and laughter? i really miss that alot and hope that i got a chance to experience it again.. i thought time will wash away all those bad memories but by now, i doubt so..hai! i'm going crazy.. how i wish you could see this post and reply me):

OFF TO BED!


always wanted to blog but the motivation for me to type isn't there.. hahaa
my HP laptop die-ed on my last month, all my precious photos are there and i only managed to save some ): pretty emo that week, felt so handicap while using my bb to surf internet and msn! but thanks to SIMIN! i got my macbook pro and a free iPod touch (: wooohooooo!! hahaa
I think because of this incident i found out alot of things.. actually i don't have much close friends and the rest have become hi bye friends.. when i needed help either wanting to help and halfway thru no replies or didn't even bother to reply.. quite sad about it and my mum was like telling me:"see lah.. no matter how good i treated others, end up when i need help, no one was there to lend you a helping hand"

but still i got my new laptop (: so happy hahaaa
lots of things happen and i don't know how to describe my feeling..
lately some events made me think of you again.. i don't know if you still reads my blog and i'm wondering how have you been recently? doing good?
your birthday is coming and i don't whether i should wish you or not.. i'm so afraid that you would reply the rest but not me.. I'm so puzzled, what's stopping you from talking to me? am i that scary or in your mind i not fit to be your friend?
you know what... everytime after school.. i would walk home instead of taking bus, because the route back home would definitely pass your house but i always don't have that luck to see you..i don't mind seeing you from far, i just want to know whether are you doing good? hahaaa i must be crazy le...

a friend of mine, i don't understand whats she's thinking and I'm actually quite bothered about this.. she offer to help me type out my work and email me but end up she didn't.. I'm not blaming her for not helping me as i know she's busy with her work.. but just that she didn't even bother to tell me that she got no time to help me..i hate it when people actually give me empty promises. few days after.. she sms me saying that she would pass back my stuff but end up... nothing happen.. i'm tired le.. seriously..

ohya! wilson introduced me a very nice korea reality show called WE GOT MARRIED featuring JO KWON AND GA IN. that show super duper nice (: hahaa if anyone got to read my blog.. please go watch.. suitable for couple (: quite nice, romantic and touchy hahahaaha i like this kind of show.. hehee give me ideas how to make my girlfriend happy(: (:

okay got to go sleep but actually in my mind i got alot more things to blog about.. i'm too tired to do it.. i should keep it for next time bah.. GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE!


过了那么久, 我终于想通了.
我可以大声地说!我对你的爱是永恒不变!! 我很爱你(:
但是爱一个人不一定要拥有她,而是看到她幸福和快乐我就心满意足了.
我不会放弃的, 我们做不了男女朋友但我希望我们的友情还是存在的.
总有一天我一定会等到你回复.

Haven't been blogging for ages, my blog is getting too dusty! hahaa
have been very busy recently
too happening for me with my old friends but somehow i enjoy more with them then others
some of my campmates are great but some are not. maybe they don't know the way i am but i don't give a damn and i think they also won't care cos NS! just two year.. in that two year you can find best friends, good friends, Hi Bye friends and some friends that don't even worth talking about.

anw I'm back to school! kind of funny! i used to hate school.. don't study for my 'O's and screw it up but after getting into the society I've learn alot of things and I really gain alot when I'm working in sentosa. thanks to all my friends there(: now! I'm studying HTM in EASB taking night classes.

webcam-ing with my relatives in indonesia were great! got to see and talk to them just a screen away(:
welcome back to the family(:
no matter what you did last time, all have become history!
no one is going to talk about it anymore and you are forgiven.
we love you.


I'm off to bed! too tired now! many things are running in my mind but nothing can be done, no solutions to it. Some mistakes I've made, there isn't any restart button for me to press. I must learn to move on and make it as a memory but i doubt that I've the ability to do it.


GOODNIGHT PEEPS!

Labels: sometimes we should learn to turn back and see what's behind us.

2010 isn't a good year for me..
lots of things happen :(
i got lots of things in my mind but no one can help me.

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